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12 hours to Semester 2. Can't believe I spent the whole day cleaning my room, ONLY. excluding the bathroom. excluding my thought. my mood. my body. my everything. turned the freakin room upside down in search of bed bugs OR/AND spider. found none.

Readings. F readings because I did none.

Food. Yeah food. fridge's pretty much empty with some rotten food. Oh and this 98% fat free yogurt.

I have this funny feeling inside me now. I think its dying to get out of my body.

one good thing. I love my schedule for this semester. Given the fact that we DO NOT have a chance to even choose our classes/time/classmates, I think I'm veryyyy lucky. Class ends Thursday afternoon. Loooooooooong weekend. More time to prepare for readings. hehehehe. Nerdy me kicking in.

Ciao.

Time to clean myself.

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Somehow looking back at all these entries dated all the way back to 2006 has rejuvenated the urge to pick up writing some shits on this abandoned site again. Thanks to the stalker and the many humiliation I've been thru.

Don't have anything in particular in mind at the moment.

Some updates:

1. I'm 'enjoying' my winter break and it's the shittiest vacation I'd ever had. For many reasons of course.
2. Joining the gym had been and will continue to emerge as a myth. beautiful one.
3. Contrary to my plan to stay in and cook myself some very healthy dishes, eating out is a daily must now. Albeit fatty. I'm happy.
4. School starts in 2 weeks and I'm already freaking out since.....3 weeks ago.
5. Manage to catch up with at least someeeee movies. Watching Harry Potter this Wed and this is making me really excited.
6. In addition to No: 5, Seven Pounds is my latest fav-movie-of-the-year. Sooooooo depressing my god.
7. I'm still an emo person who loves watching depressing movie for a good heart breakin cry.
8. Thinking of sashimi at the moment.
9. Going on a trip this weekend. Awesome beachhouse awaiting. Beach volleyball. Board games. Card games. Drinking games. and hopefully some sexy drinking nites.
10. Sleeping in early tonight, hopefully, after a week of 3am.

I do have something in mind huh.

Love me. Nights.

Dedicated to my hommie who just found my blog!

Now I believed in what my hommie said. Internet never forgets. F this Pipl thingy and now I've got 'stalker' reading my entries from...4 years ago and having a good laugh at the pictures and shits.


yeah i wanna dig a hole and hide in there until YOU, yes YOU, unplug ur internet cable!

Hard work

Tell me about it.

Good Friday

First day of the 10-day Easter-supposedly-break. I love how my Torts lecturer put it - Easter break? ...Its another fancy name for hard labour, he said.

I don't wanna complain because at least I get to wake up without the arbitrariness of IL DIVO singing from my phone.

While people are celebrating the coming of Easter or merely the break, I came home straight after class and decided to put away every single thing on my mind and proceed to sleep my evening off. I was feeling very very bad, almost inevitably guilty because I could have put those hours to better use, such as, STUDY. Woke up around 6pm, starving, I had dumplings with toast and jam. Yet another wonderful creation on the combination of food.

Spent the night speaking to family and cracked a few lame jokes and off to bed again, reluctlant to remind myself of the big snow ball rolling behind me.

Despite my plan to sleep the morning off until noon, my schooled biological clock started singing IL DIVO around 8 in the morning. Tossed around for another half an hour and decided to get the day started with breakfast and some readings.

Now, sitting on the floor, I've been putting all the deadlines and to-dos on my planner...and all of a sudden this surge of exhaustion and restlessness flooded my body and I started facebooking mindlessly.

This is so far the worst break I've ever had. I rather not have it and go to class everyday.

Balance..balance..I've been telling myself. How on earth can I find this non-existing balance point when I have an elephant on one hand, and a feather on the other.

A stranger to myself

I'm doing this real fast because it reads 23:40 on my computer clock and I don't wanna miss a single minute of my sleep.

I don't understand myself for most of the time but this is something I honestly do not get it. psychological or neurological or mental or wadeva u call that.

I remembered deleting text messages on my phone when I was stoopid and young (well yeah I was lame enough to actually store messages which I thought was proofs of how he loved me and blah and shits) after a fight of course, and I came across this feeling that makes me feel like a stranger to all these past of mine. In a less abstract interpretation, I forgot how I felt, what I was thinking when I performed these actions (savings messages).

I even felt sick looking at those cheesey mushy words coming from someone whom I once claimed to be in love with. I would freak and flush everything (which could be some 300 messages at one time) and go like *phew* they are gone.

This hadn't happened for quite a long time and today while I was looking at random pictures of facebook, this feeling came floodin my mind..leaving me sick and disgusted thinking of what I've done. It is prolly the worst thing someone could have said but yeah, I felt like removing that particular chapter out of my life. I regret, which I hate to say. I can't recall how I felt for us, and I would prefer to leave it blank than filling it up with us. I wish we never happened.

Thursdays are the best!

Here I am lying in my bed with my baby. Its a Thursday, and it is officially my favourite day of the week now!

So much's been going on for the past two weeks..and this week passes by like *bam* ! Literally faster than I've expected. I've started to realise how time passes so swiftly especially when u barely even have time to come to realization of it. I'm not sure if its a good thing or not. I'm going into the 4th week now. Spring break (here they call it Easter break) is just around the corner and that actually freaks me out even more! It only means I'm half way thru the semester already my god!! damn gin teo!

Quite a few happfying things I'd love to share..

I'm officially the member of Melbourne Journal of International Law! *hurray* But I'm a lil upset now cause we'll be having this training day coming sat and I was supposed to go to this winery with Marvin and co. !! Argh can't believe I missed horse riding and now winery?!!

okay happy things happy things. I get side tracked too easily.

And I've got my new baby Asus Eee PC!! It really comes in handy so now my backpack is about 2 kgs lighter and that makes it about 5kgs..

I've never had such a fully-stuffed-like-it-is-going-to-burst-anytime backpack! Not even when I was in ChmsNo1 as a nerd hor! I honestly think The North Face should be the sponsor for law schools..they are so far the best for law books. Unlike R*xy, ripping after a week?! and you call yourself a backpack!

My mind isn't working very well for now..gonna take a nap and shower then start reading for next week!! YES I AM KIA SU. HATE ME FOR THAT.

Oooooohhh one last happy things! LAKSA NIGHT at 1212's tomorrow! Can't wait hehehehe!!